Surreal.....

I would say the only word that could describe the last couple of weeks is surreal....... I can't actually believe there is a babygirl inside my belly and that she is due in 4 days. The closer it has gotten to her due date, the more I don't actually believe she is real. She moves incessantly but its like part of the furniture now, I'm used to it and don't find it at all like an external being, that simple fact that she will actually come out is not really something I think of as reality...well until it happens.

My mood this week has been weird and whimsical, I've gone into a loner/leave me alone headspace, which is not uncommon for me anyway. The hours of each day seem to melt into the other and before I know it another day is done and dusted.

I miss being able to move around with ease and grace, I miss my stomach, I miss my sparkly glasses of champagne and being able to wear my favourite skinny jeans with my favourite rock t-shirts. That all feels like a different lifetime ago. I am ready for the rock'n'roll mama reinvention, I am excited to be a brand new me, whoever she is, she will still be fierce, sarcastic & moody with maybe a little more love shooting out of her......XX