Days Go By....

I have worked out every day, pumping out those happy endorphins, mood is still varying degrees of panic and peace.....anxious today to spend the whole day on my own, indoors as the rain pelters down like bullets outside....I think I will be okay...Sick of counting down the days though and am really hoping I get a magic spark soon & get to really enjoy and soak up these last few moments of non-workdom...really hoping it comes soon as I know I will regret wishing these homebound days away. Some Mama's would die to be home everyday with their baby, the guilt will just devour me if my mental state won't get there first.....Laughing it Off, and just gonna smash through another day......X